That’s right…I’m pregnant!
Unexpectedly pregnant, but pregnant nonetheless (that’s a separate post).
I am 16wks as of July 2nd, and now that the shock of being charged with the IMMENSE responsibility of raising a baby into a well-adjusted adult has worn off, I can begin to experience other feelings.
Right now, mainly excitement.
I’m excited for all the firsts. The first time I fully feel Bean kick and move (I refer to the baby as Bean until we find out the sex). The first time I see Bean and the OB places them on my chest. Will their hair be curly or straight? What will their cry sound like? Will I cry or be in complete shock that I have finally finished the first half of this journey.
I’m excited to be called “Mama”.
I’m also excited to watch my husband become a Father. He has handled my sickness and all the changes well so far. I know his bonding with the baby will look different from mine, but my prayer is that he would begin to feel connected to Bean before birth. Occasionally he will rub my ever growing belly and talk to our little one. I know he will be a great example of a father.
Already, Bean is turning me into the Mother I never thought I’d be. I feel so in love and fantasize about cuddling, rocking and kissing their cheeks. I often think about the kind of life I want for them. How I want them to feel loved, heard, supported but also challenged to grow and learn. Needless to say, I’m obsessed.
It was hard to keep Bean a secret for the first trimester because being pregnant is such a life changing event that it’s all I ever think about. Besides having the constant reminder via nausea, everything I thought was filtered and seen through baby-colored glasses.
Planning changed. Cruise in the fall? How big would I be? What will Christmas with family look like this year as I am due Dec 17th. If I go a week over my due date I will be delivering a Christmas Eve baby. Christmas and the season has always been my favorite time of the year, but this year will be extra special.
I have much to say about the journey thus far, but I will save it for another post. Right now, I’ll just focus on the blessing that is conception.
Calling all mothers! I’m open to any and all advice. From how to survive the pregnancy, to labor and delivery encouragement, to tips for raising a newborn. Please leave your wisdom in the comments. Thanks in advance!