The Pain of Loneliness

No one cares.

It’s been a hard realization for me, but I think it’s time I finally learn to accept this.

I’m even convinced God Himself wants me to live a life of solitude.

I know no one will read this post. It will just be one of the things left behind.

Anyone who ‘cares’ only does for selfish reasons. They’ll probably remind me that I have children.

And even still, I am alone. It is a cloud I can’t escape.

10 thoughts on “The Pain of Loneliness

  1. Hey Laketra! I read both of your post today. I am usually too overwhelmed to keep up, but today, seeing your name caught my attention. I do care. And I appreciate you sharing the complexity of motherhood, womanhood, and simply being human. It’s not easy for others to understand. You can be surrounded by love and blessings and still feel lonely, overwhelmed, and sad. You can love your family and still need space. It’s so hard. I hope this is still a space where you can feel your feelings. You’re doing a wonderful job at life. Even when it doesn’t feel like it, and it won’t always. You’re not alone 🖤

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    1. Tiara! My fave! I literally search your page when I’ve been gone to get updated on the masterpiece that is your posts. Thank you for the encouragement. I thought (am thinking) about kind of disappearing from the social world specifically when it comes to vulnerable posts like this because although it is therapeutic to me, I wonder if sharing these parts of me is worthless. Like, doing too much. Like, where has it gotten me? Idk. I’m still thinking about it. But your words make me second guess disappearing. Maybe it does matter? Thank you for taking the time out of your life to show you care.

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      1. Don’t disappear! If you don’t have this space to share how you feel, honestly and without judgement, do you have an alternative? This is for you, not anyone else. You share as much or as little as you want. It’s never worthless, it’s valid and important. If writing this all down makes you feel just a little bit lighter, it’s worth it. You shouldn’t have to hold it on your chest. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks. This is your gift to yourself.

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  2. Hey Laketra! I just wanted to let you know that I read your post today. I see you, and I see that you’ve been struggling. The Covid-19 isolation has been so hard, and I can only imagine how hard it is with small children. You’re so loved, and I care about you very much. I’m so proud of you for surviving, even when it’s so hard. I look forward to reading more of your posts. Sending lots of love and virtual hugs your way. 😊

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