‘There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens…’ -Ecclesiastes 3:1
Everyone desires to do something great in life. Recently I’ve been asking myself, ‘What is that ‘something great’ for me?’
Do you ever look around (mainly at your timelines on social media) and see all these people doing all these amazing things and then look at yourself and feel like you’re failing?
Like, do you notice that other people are starting businesses and writing books and you’re just at home changing diapers and being spit up on?
Or is it just me?
Thanks to some amazing women who thought it not robbery to be incredibly vulnerable with me, I KNOW it’s not just me. I posed the above question to them and they answered with an overwhelmingly, resounding, ‘YES!!!!’
They also shared their hearts and some words of wisdom that made writing this post a little easier for me….
For people who know me personally, they know that accomplishments and achievements have been a close companion of mine since before grade school. I don’t consider myself an over achiever, but goals are like Pokémon cards to me: Gotta catch ‘em all!
Among other things, this is one of the reasons why this transition to motherhood (and especially motherhood to babies 11 months apart) has been so internally challenging for me. Due to the nature of parenting kids this young (almost 14 months and 3 months), it is very difficult for me to give time and energy to anything else other than my babies. They are at an age where they are very dependent on me, and their demands don’t allow me to give myself to much else.
Especially career goals.
I’ve struggled with not feeling like my kids are career straight jackets. I’m experiencing the age old debate of, ‘Can I have it all?’ Can I be this totally 100% present super Mom at all times AND this super successful career woman at the same time? Maybe. But not today.
Or tomorrow. And that’s ok.
I am slowly realizing what takes priority in this season of my life. FOR ME, right now is not the time for world domination. Currently, the change I’m going to make in the world lies within two ridiculously cute little girls.
Right now, THEY are my mission field. THEY are my something great.
With that being said, I am giving myself permission to take a step back, exit the rat race, and focus on raising my girls. I’ll enjoy the cuddles, laughter, milestones and the like without feeling like I’m being pulled in a thousand different directions.
And in those moments when I start to feel like I’m not doing enough in the world, I’ll remind myself that even this season of raising babies will, like most things, come to an end. And when it does, I hope to be proud of the Laketra that put her dreams on hold and gave herself with reckless abandonment to the duty of nurturing two happy, healthy, whole, confident girls.
My prayer is that these girls will grow up to become women who, when they think back on their childhood, can say with full assurance, ‘I was loved.’
That would, indeed, be something great. ❤️